So one thing i cant stand is flaky people. like for real i thought we were past this. we are all adults and i really just dont understand why your still acting like this. WTF. can we please just get real.. either you are or you arent, either you did or you didnt, either you there or your not, either your coming or your not!

You freaking know so let the rest of the world in.. geesh. i cant take this any longer.. complete and utter crap!!! go jump in a whole and just stay there for a while unitl you decide that you can flake your way out!

Needed to get that out.

Im not good at swimming.. all because of a near death exp

You told me you loved me.. I told you I Felt the same..
We loved it each for a While until I Ran.
You knew this would happen, and yet you loved me anyway
We went our separate ways
As time passed on you waited as long as you could until you had to move on
You got someone else and I finally came around.
We once again we dabbled with trouble, and you made a choice
I Was upset for a while and tried to move on..
When I realized I had lost it all, I Tried to get it back
You told me I had run out of time…
Now I’m just as lost as I was before..
Do I wait or do I move on..
In the mean time I guess I’ll just drown……….



When you find out something you cant have is something you always wanted… it leaves you feeling very empty. Sometimes you actually physically fill ill to the point that the pain eats away at you until you can no longer stand it. I think that’s the hardest part, is the acceptance. What you deiced to do with that acceptance, is the moment where you have finally make a decision and then you can start to swim back to the surface. Guaranteed its not gonna happen overnight, and even from time to time that actual physical pain will re surface. But as long as you decide not to drown..then You won’t have a problem jumping back into the water and taken another swim

I’m not very good at swimming because of a near death experience that has scared me for life. I have allowed that to make me scared of swimming and have not swam in a very long time because I am still caught up on my escape. As long as I allow this to dictate my future, I will continue drowning, without even getting into the water.

AS much as I don’t enjoy jumping or getting into water because it only makes me think of the past, I cant let it determine the rest of my life.. I have without a doubt decided to jump back into the water. I will not drown and I do not plan to let anyone else do the same.. I will look forward, stay positive, and hope for the best. As long as I keep treading water, I cant drown. When my arms get tired and I feel like I cant tread anymore.. I’ll take a break and just float. Floating are the people and things that keep you from drowning. Without floating you start to sink and you end up right back at square one.

I’m going to tread water and float from now on!!!!!! Now all I need is a body of water. I have all the time in the world.